i have enough love for all the children my children will give me, and then some. i have tried to imagine myself with miss charlotte and another gbaby and dividing my time and myself to make sure each feels the special love i will have for each one. it was such a shock when the call came at 1am that friday nite well saturday morning i should say. and then to be the one to go with ashley for the first ultrasound. hearing that precious heart beating, seeing that jelly bean on the screen, such a special moment. that new life, coming into our lives. i worry for all my children, but to think will becoming a father== oh how over whelming and financially challenging their life is already. and then there is the child that will is not the father of, but tries so hard to be the father figure that tyler needs and deserves, ,, please watch over all my children. restore virginia to the best heath, give amanda the strength and patience it takes to raise a child, please a husband, survive a new job, and be the woman she is proud of, and most of all, i need trey. i need him well. i need him for me to be . for me to exist and for me to be healthy, for me to have my life, i need him. without him i do not know who i am.
i want to be the best gigi= granny. i can hardly wait for the moment another life begins for me. and gbaby is in my arms in my world.
just me, jb
